Life is full of changes. I've been changing some things this week....my blog, names on my blog, my house decor, and life has changed here, too. I was waiting to put the written word on my blog that we were 9 weeks pregnant as of last week. This week, however, we are grieving the loss of this baby. We had just started getting used to the idea of another child, starting to make plans for room arrangements, getting excited about a new addition. Then this week our emotions took another turn. The kids are sad, too, but handling it very well. I know in my mind that God has a plan, He is in control, and we're leaning on Him. However, the heart has to heal and let go. Tears have helped, family and friends have been so sweet, and hubby and I have spent a lot of time together, just grieving in our own way. Part of the grieving for me is to make some positive changes.....I took out all my fall decorations, changing my blog around, and last night I put up a new and improved chore chart for the kids. Somehow these small "changes" help me to cope with this loss. Today, in fact, I'm shopping for some curtains (online). You may think it's a strange way to grieve, but it beats watching TV all day, or reading a sappy book. I can't do that right now. Although, I have to say, Ell*n has given me some laughs this week.
This is all new for us, and we are working through it in our own way. I am very grateful for my sis-in-law who came and picked up my kids when I was in the middle of the worst day this week. Her hubby was out of town, but she stopped her day to call me, letting me cry, and offering to help. I wouldn't have known what to do if she hadn't been there for me. Thanks to both sister in laws who were here for me, emotionally and physically, as well as numerous family and friends who have given many sweet words of encouragment.
We're starting our day now. It's time to start a new day, allowing God's rest and peace into our hearts and lives. I'm resting today, although I'm sure I'll find something to change, even if it's just my clothes!
6 comments:
Mama and I grieve with you, Baby Bird. When you hurt, we hurt. Your loss is also our loss. Thank God that we know He is in control and we can turn to Him for comfort when we can't make sense of life's tragic events. It is encouraging to hear that you are working hard at moving forward. We are praying for you. We love you!
Here, here. What Boppa said. We are so sorry for our loss but we trust the Father is revealing His love and comfort to you and K and the kids in His loving way. I only wish I could have been there to sit and cry with you and give you the hugs and understanding that you gave me when I lost our first baby. We will continue to pray and seek the Lord for your healing in body and in Spirit.
And if you really feel like changing something, I have a dining room that needs painted :) grin :)
So sorry about the loss of your little one. I left a comment in response to your comment (on our blog). Terribly sad. Have you thought of having a little burial service. Fr. Frank Pavone from "Priests for Life" says it is very important to treat the life of this little one as you would any of your other children. We found the burial that we had for our last miscarried baby so consoling. So many others who never got the chance to bury their babies found some consolation in it too... although they had that regret. Love and prayers to you.
Adele and Doug
Our hearts are sad with you. Trust that God is in control and has a plan. We love you guys and want to continue to do whatever we can for you through this time. Praying for you.
Just found your blog. Praying for you- Thanking God that He can heal the deepest hurts. Love ya.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I understand your pain. I will be praying for you all as you heal through this.
Lots of love
Leslie
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